i want to change a little

Actually i studied in GURUKULAM school. The place where the teachers taught me ethics and values more than my studies,like respecting people,caring those who were in need,respecting others feelings,how to be confident,how to achieve something in right manner.

But when i came out of my school after completing my six years of education , I entered into sri chaitanya junior college,where they(friends) showed all the things i learnt in the school are my weaknesses and i must change them ,i couldn't understand anything so i kept calm and studied

Now i am entering to a four year engineering course.......i got a doubt weather i want to be in such a way that how my teachers taught in school or how friends taught me in intermediate college.

A idea suddenly flashed in my mind let me divide my four years of education into two equal halves

and 

THE FIRST TWO YEARS FOR MY HEART:

 

As the word heart is pronounced similarly to haaart hart hurt........my behaviour hurted me a lot,i always want each and every one of my friends to be good with me but until last i never understood that its not at all possible unless i act.

Every one says no one is perfect but I surely say I am comparatively perfect

THE NEXT TWO YEARS FOR MY MIND:

Now i want to live according to the things what my friends taught me.

But i don't know how to change and how to behave .......If you find any difference please don't blame me.I am definitely not Responsible for what i do in next two years.......even if u  blame i don't want to care because they taught me the same thing ...........DON'T CARE

 

FOR MIND SO ...........I DON'T MIND ANYTHING

                            A journey that motivated me a lot

on 3/02/2015 i woke up early in the morning, generally i never used to get up early in the morning bur i don't know why i woke up and went for jogging and when i returned home my grand mother met with a small accident and she asked me i want to go to puttaparty, my native place ...i don't think twice when i feel it good.i asked my father and started my journey in my toy car(nano). I never went 250 kilo meters alone by car.because i am new to driving.But i do anything when i feel emotional so i reached puttaparthy.
        
                Till now every thing is fine ,in my native place there is a super speciality hospital built by sri satya sai baba.Nearer to the hospital we have a lodge where we give rooms for daily rent.From childhood onwards i used to watch the people coming from different parts of the country to cure their deseases for free of cost .Three years back a small child came with orthopadic provlem she is so cute but i am afraid to touch her because i dont know wat happens to her legs when i touch her.Generally i never came across the same person again in that place.But today when i went there the girl is walking and dancing happily.I felt great looking at her even though i hate god after completion of my schooling once i thanked him ..and she came into my house and my mother also recognised her and

THE FOLLOWING CONVERSATION BETWEEN MY MOTHER,THE CHILD AND HER FATHER BROUGHT TEARS IN MY EYES...........

My mom                 : is she fine now?
Her father               : she is recovered from orthopadeic problem and when i came for testing they                                         found that she is having kidney problem
My mom asked her :  (teek hye?)  ARE YOU FINE? in hindi
The child                 : NAH (NO IN HINDI)
My mom                 : KOYI PROBLEM NAHI SUB KUCH TEEKH HO JAYEGA,BHAGAWAN                                      HYE(NO PROBLEM EVERY THING WILL BE FINE,GOD IS THERE)
The child                : NAH(NO IN HINDI)

1)when the girl said (NAH) NO, the vibration of her tone and the sadness in her voice ..... oh god! i am unable to control my self..........


I AM SURE IF THE EMOTION REMAINS IN ME, EVEN IN A SMALL QUANTITY ..........I AM CAPABLE OF CHANGING THE WORLD "ALONE" 

STRENGTHS:

MY STRENGTH IS THINKING ,YEAH I AM ABLE TO THINK CONTINUOUSLY FOR A LONG TIME ALONE ,BUT MY THOUGHTS ARE USELESS TILL NOW BECAUSE MY THOUGHTS ALWAYS TAKES DEVIATION FROM ONE TO ANOTHER AND LINKS ALL THE ASPECTS AND AT LAST  I CONCLUDE WITH THE STATEMENT "THESE ARE NOT POSSIBLE"

WEAKNESS:

WEAK IN DECIDING WHO IS GOOD AND WHO IS BAD

DISLIKES:

• I HATE INTELLIGENT PEOPLE BECAUSE THEY ALWAYS TRY TO SHOW THEIR INTELLIGENCE BY SPEAKING AGAINST HUMANITY AND MORALS AND THEY FEEL IT AS GREAT AND SMART................. 
• I HATE MY LIFE BECAUSE IT FORCED ME TO TAKE THE NAME "TOPPER"AND I AM TRYING TO GET OUT OF IT AND ALMOST SUCCEEDED IN ENGINEERING 

LIKES:

SHE DOESN'T LIKE ME, IF I SAY I LIKE HER, SO I AM NOT GOING TO SAY NOW AND I HOPE YOU UNDERSTAND...........

              INITIALLY BLOWING MY OWN TRUMPET 

I CALLED IT AS A "TRUMPET" BECAUSE, I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING HAPPENED IN MY CHILDHOOD AND I CAME TO KNOW ABOUT THAT ONLY BY LISTENING TO PARENTS AND OTHERS....

Any way my name is THARAK SAI REDDY if you are reading my blog interestingly you get a doubt then what is this "aravind2020indian" .My mom used to call me aravind when i was not given any name and my aim is to watch India as a developed country by 2020.So as i love my mom and my aim more than everything i use this for all my online activities......

Intresting thing about my birthday:I came to know that birthday is celebrated as a prominent day in ones life when I got a chocolate from my cousin and I ran to my grand mother and asked her what is my birth date.She is an illiterate and she said some telugu months and some hints frankly i understood nothing but to get many chocolates into my hands I fixed some date that is October 7